THE MORNING AFTER THE PORT

It’s a new day and I am so happy to see a little sunshine peeking through the clouds.  The port is in place and it is sore but it is better than last night and will be better yet tomorrow.  Jan and I are continually mulling over the research on which treatment to go with and just when we are sure we chose the appropriate one…..we read some more.  I am certain once this decision is made, our lives will be much easier and we will just go with it.

Three weeks ago, I knew nothing about kidney cancer.  Then I was stunned to find that I have it.  Once I got used to that idea, then decisions about where to be treated had to be made.  Now, with no knowledge about this disease and how it works, we have to make the decision on which treatment to use!  Ask me about a young child’s behavior or speech or socialization skills and I have experience to answer those questions.  This is a very important decision to make about saving my life and I have nothing to go on.  I must admit none of this sounds like a lot of fun but I am hoping if  go through the bad stuff there will be fun on the other side.  Most of the time I just want to escape.

I wander over to this computer hourly to read notes from all of you.  It really is a lifeline to so many special people.  Some make me laugh, others cry, and all of them warm my heart.  I am so blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life.  Thanks.

I have a baby blanket to finish, another one to start, and wedding and grandbaby plans to make along with upcoming Passover.  So for the moment, the cancer discussion will be put away and I will try to live my life as best as I can.

 

 

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