Jan was very busy at work and had an appointment in the evening so I was home alone for a very long time yesterday. This is not good because I had too much time to think. My mind went to places I try to avoid and by the time Jan came home, I was hysterical. I must admit that fear is such a powerful thing and when it is let in the door it consumes you. I was consumed last night.
I really try not to feel sorry for myself since there are others who have it much more difficult than I do, but yesterday was my day. And so, it is a new day and my mind need some other stimulation besides just me. I am going to try to walk around my building a few times today and see what the world has to offer outside this building.
For now, I am just grateful for the light of a new day and a chance to do something else. Also there are no treatments and I do feel a little better. I just need more strength.