It is Tuesday and it is an off Tuesday with no chemo. I was more awake yesterday but still very nauseous. It amazes me how long this poison stays with you. I have next Tuesday and the following Tuesday ahead of me and the thought of it makes me want to escape. But I will do it knowing that the chemo is working and hopefully one day be able to look at this as a bad nightmare. I wonder how long it will take to get this treatment out of my body completely. I find I am taking more of the my other meds and barely making it to the time allotment just to get through the day. In the beginning, I was trying to spread out the time and take as little as possible.
Plan for the day. Think about whether I really can make it to Boston for Carter Jake Boggs circumcision and naming on Thursday and go on to the Cape or should I just stay here for the next few days and rest. Hard on for my brain because I am almost willing to anything different than what I am doing now.
I had a great day with Rea and Shuie which helped the time to pass by until Jan arrived home. Our Baby Einstein Pack and Play arrived yesterday and so Rea and I put it together and played with the toys. I was even thinking of not taking my meds this morning and driving 10 minutes to Rea’s so I can go see “Ricky Martin” on the sonogram at her doctor’s appointment. Know better than to try that one. I have not driven a car since April.
As you can see, I am feeling better in my mind thinking of all the trouble I can get into. Physically, I am so far behind and really know better. But it keeps me going.
Wishing you a mobile and creative day.